Last week I had total hip replacement. One way I prepared for it was by imagining myself in three months walking upright, sans pain, sans cane. Walking not just three blocks, but three miles! It was an effective incentive that served me well. Still serves me well.
I find that now it serves me better to live authentically in this liminal time of recovery. As seers say, live in the now. I am trying to be faithful to a grounding meditation in which I release unwanted ego energy (“I should increase my walk today”) into the earth, and draw healing energy from the earth into my hip and leg and whole body. Without that ego clamor I am then able to hear my body tell me what it can and can’t do. This liminal time between disability and ability has become sacred to me. I can only imagine what other lessons will present themselves in the weeks ahead.
Please leave us a note about practices you have for dealing with the in-between times of your life.
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Yesterday, to save time, I took the E-line bus which runs through the non-Amazon side of Seattle. It is a route which usually leaves me depleted of psychic energy. However, this time the E-Line gifted me with the blessed ordinariness of life. It was a holiday and folks were basking in their liminal time. Gentle smiles graced the faces of the poorest of the poor. An aging woman who still walked well gave her seat to an aging man who no longer walked well. I was unaware of my need to see ordinary folks going about their lives with courage and joy. Today this poem emerged.
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So much is too much when it happens within a tight time frame. When I caught myself sitting still in a stare choking on emerging emotions I pushed my body out to the earth. The ritual that brought relief to my ragged soul follows. I hope you will also find it helpful.
Sit with feet planted firmly on the ground and breathe naturally while you gradually take in your surroundings (“Wherever you are be the soul of that place.”- Rumi)
Imagine that a cord stretches from the base of your spine down into the earth acting as a channel through which all accumulated unwanted energy passes into the earth where it can be reconstituted and positively recharged. With each deep exhale send this energy downward until it no longer has a hold on you.
As you gather this unwanted energy from your body let your prayer be this or something else meaningful to you:
You will know that this energy has left your body when it feels lighter and less dense.
Now imagine that a second cord extends from the base of your spine into the earth; its purpose is to carry positive energy from the earth into your body. With each deep inhale bring healing energy into every part of your body.
As you gather healing earth energy into your body let your prayer be this or something else meaningful to you:
When you feel balanced and grounded slowly bring your consciousness back to present time and place. Know that you may feel a little spacey, so move slowly and intentionally.
Now you are ready to receive again.
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Yesterday, when I read Anita Neilson’s excellent post, “I Beat the Blues.” I was unaware how saturated I was with energy that wasn’t doing me any good at all. “Depressed,” or “The Blues” didn’t ring true for the state in which I found myself, but Anita’s post was the catalyst I needed to release myself.
I find it a gift and a curse to have a heightened awareness of energy. I am consistently aware of that, but inconsistently faithful to protecting myself from the sometimes intense or negative energy of others. Political dissonance is causing even folks of good will to cast blame onto others of good will and that energy hangs out with the truly malignant energy spewing out of hate mongers. I realized that I wasn’t taking well enough care of myself.
So I begin again. I am blessed with the privilege of solitude and silence, so I usually remember to center, but I need to do it in the day’s middle as well as its beginning. I’ve been forgetting to ground myself, which is essential for me to manage the energy I pick up. The meditation podcast that Anita recommends in her post is excellent. I found tremendous relief from the centering/grounding meditation I found there. A walk outside on the earth and in intimacy with trees returned my sense of rootedness. I selected a glorious red leaf and stone to grace my inside altar. Spritzing water all around my body helped me shake off accumulated energy that kept me on edge.
I cannot afford to be careless. I really must intentionally protect myself from energy bombardment. These are only a few ways to do that. A simple google search with keywords “energy-protection,” will yield many suggestions for those in need.
I feel so much better now. Thank you, Anita. May I remember to faithfully care for myself.