This reflection comes to us from my friend Ardine Martinelli, who lives in the beautiful NW where she is a Spiritual Director and retreat leader. She enjoys gardening, hiking, travel,
and good conversation with friends. May it speak to us in ways we can hear and heed.
While meditating I received the most amazing message, “Change your image from Warrior to Dancer.” This jolted me back to the present as I began to reflect on what that might look like.
I have been a warrior most of my life. I felt I needed to prove, achieve, master and do. I lived life like I had to conquer it. I moved out into the world, believing I had to make things happen. This mode served me well for a long time. I built a successful career and business, and created a sense of competency and worth around my achievements. I am now 71 years old and this image no longer serves me, in fact, it drains me. I am tired of pushing through, I want to rest and let life come to me.
Ah, this is the image of the dancer. As I began playing with the dancer image I realized I craved the idea of letting life flow through me. As a dancer, I am a partner with life not a conqueror of life. My dancer waits, trusting in life and knowing all is well. My whole body relaxes as I let this image flow through me. It is hard for me to imagine waiting for life to come to me. Trust is not a quality that comes easy.
Warrior is my default mode. When I feel stressed, anxious, frustrated, I move into the warrior, take-charge mode. It is my warrior energy that creates the struggle of believing I “should” be “doing” more. With awareness, I can allow my warrior to rest. It is not either/or, it is a dance between my warrior and dancer. The shift of image is a process and I trust in its slow movement through my being.
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